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benzo addiction (crossposted to crazy on meds) [30 Aug 2005|02:19pm]
[ mood | pissed ]

this is not an anti-psychiatry post. it is a post against one psychiatrist in particular.

so here's the problem. i am in the process of kicking my addiction to klonopin. i am considering either suing my former psychiatrist or siccing the state on him (i have reasonably powerful contacts within my state's health department). my reasons are as follows: the doctor knew about my history of drug and alcohol abuse and addiction, particularly speed and various central nervous system depressants (alcohol, benzos, sleeping pills). he decided to put me on a daily dose of klonopin, a drug which is known to cause both physical and psychological addiction, and left me on it for over a year (the maximum recommended length of treatment for daily use of a benzodiazepene is six months). when i called to let him know i needed to schedule an appointment with him so that i could get my prescription for klonopin, he left me a message telling me he was no longer able to handle my case (i have occasionally psychotic bipolar disorder). i called again, said i was fine with that, and asked him for referrals to other psychiatrists and again for a refill on my prescription. he never called me back, so after about a week without klonopin i found another psychiatrist, who informed me that while cutting me off from the klonopin was not illegal, it was very poor medical practice. she helped me to incrementally step down from klonopin over a course of six weeks, and i now no longer take the drug. however, i am still physically addicted to it (i am currently going through withdrawals) and very angry with this psychiatrist. what course of action would be best? as far as i see it, i have three options. i can do nothing. i can bring a lawsuit against him. or, i could sic the state health department on his ass, something my contacts have offered and are encouraging me to do. i would greatly appreciate any input yall could give me on this matter.

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[01 Aug 2005|07:59pm]
thought: poker is a very "straight male" game. it's all about convincing other people your dick is bigger than their's.
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[01 Aug 2005|12:22pm]
i want to record rock versions of ella fitzgerald songs. now, if only i had some musicians and some recording equipment and a lot of money...
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[30 Jul 2005|10:39am]
[ mood | awake ]

last night i had another nightmare involving my parents. this time, my mother broke my foot and tried to poison me. i had hoped that with the renewal of something other than a financial relationship with them that the nightmares would go away. i guess not.

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Six Current Favorite Songs List [08 Jun 2005|01:37pm]
[ mood | avoidant ]

For sylviamaris :

Tori Amos -- I Can't See New York
Ani DiFranco -- Animal
PJ Harvey -- Long Snake Moan
Placebo -- Taste In Men
The Beatles -- Helter Skelter
Cream -- Badge

and a bonus song:

Concrete Blonde -- Tomorrow, Wendy

Now for six people whose top six current songs i'd like to see:

-- conchy
-- nurianova
-- drownophelia
-- tranarchoi
-- splatterhouse
-- iramoved

Have fun with it, kids!

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[29 May 2005|06:15pm]
someone please call. i'm not doing very well today.
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it's not what i was expecting... [25 May 2005|03:56pm]
You scored as Simon, the Doctor.


Simon, the Doctor


Captain Malcolm Reynolds




Kaylee, the Mechanic


Shepherd Book


First Mate Zoe


Jayne Cobb, resident bad-ass


Inara, the "Companion"


Wash, the Pilot


created with
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[24 May 2005|06:03pm]
Orbitz now does national advertising for their gay-friendly division!
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[23 May 2005|05:33pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

it's official. i am not good enough for the City University of New York.

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[20 May 2005|04:02pm]
so, splatterhouse, this one"s for youCollapse )
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[20 May 2005|12:05am]
You scored as The Stud. Often seen as the quiet loner, you often dress in leather and stand in the rain hoping to meet a potential lover.


The Stud


The Femme Fatale


The Quasi-Gothic Femme


The Student Dyke


The Magic Earring Ken Dyke


The Vaginal-Reference-Making Dyke


The Bohemian Dyke


The Surprise! Dyke


The Little-Boy Dyke


The Sprightly Elfin Femme


The Granola Dyke


The Hipster Dyke


The Pretty-Boi Dyke


What Type of Lesbian Are You? (Inspired by Curve Mag.)
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[18 May 2005|04:14pm]
i've got a bottle of tequila, baby, who needs friends?
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[17 May 2005|03:45pm]
someone who looks like eliza dushku is sitting in judge hatchett's court. that is the highlight of my day.
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[17 May 2005|02:47pm]
[ mood | tired ]

i hate applying for jobs. i've mentioned this before, but it still holds true. it's boring and frustrating and for some reason i've yet to be emailed back or called about any of the jobs i've applied for. i still haven't heard from hunter, so i'm holding onto the desperate hope that i'm going to graduate school and don't have to worry about finding a permanent placement. if i do get in, i'm going to write to my parents and ask for the money that i (just recently found out i) have squirreled away. i don't know if they'll give it to me or not.

update: my parents and i are not speaking. i came out to them as queer 8 years ago, and trans about 4 months ago, and: they don't want a daughter, they want a son. they are not willing to do anything to move forward towards accepting who i am, even though i've provided them with a multitude of options in terms of gaining understanding and support. i have a two hundred dollar check to cash that they gave me that i hope hasn't been canceled.

bah. i wish kevin was online.

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[04 May 2005|08:30pm]
[ mood | excited ]

one of the two wonderfalls i haven't seen should be downloaded by midnight. woo hoo!

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[04 May 2005|04:47pm]
i hate seeing all these crappy college commercials that are on television during the day. i hate them because they're directed at me.
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[03 May 2005|05:02pm]
i've posted about this before, but as it's happening more frequently now i am getting more desperate for an answer. my shrink and pharmacists have no idea what's going on. that being said, a little back story: i've been on paxil cr (double pinks daily) for a little over a year now. shortly after beginning treatment, i began to experience a bizarre side effect; it's like all the electrical bonds that attach my atoms together are severed for a split second and then reconnected. i have had to stop my paxil feeding schedule for financial reasons twice now, and whenever i stop this particular side effect increases in frequency, from happening maybe once a week when i'm on paxil to hundreds of times a day when i'm off. when it happens many times in quick succession, i get a headache, nausea, disorientation and my body goes numb for a few seconds. i'm worried because no one seems to know what is causing this. please help!
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[03 May 2005|11:09am]
[ mood | nasty ]

i hate looking for work. going through want-ads, seeing how NOT qualified i am, attempting to write cover letters to make myself sound marginally right for the jobs i'm applying for, not getting called in for interviews. as problematic as it was, i probably should never have left lifespire without making sure i had another job lined up. i have no money, i don't know when i may get work again, and i can't cut communications with my parents while they're financially supporting me. bah.

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pot for pizza? [02 May 2005|05:31pm]
Check it out:
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and yet i wasn't even born til 11 years later [02 May 2005|12:07pm]

You Belong in 1972


If you scored...

1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in!

1960 - 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule - oh, and drugs too.

1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all!

1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day.

1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!

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